I felt very lethargic, very tired, and at one point incredibly sad.

I had to fill out insurance papers today, related to my long term disability. It’s very hard not to think of my situation when asked to fill out paperwork on it.

‘Made me think’ it did.

It feels like not so long ago I entered N/A to so many medical forms. But now they are filled with medicines, doctors, appointment, symptoms, difficulties, frequencies, the  speed of events, and expected result…. the pages, all the lines, the margins were filled.

Fucking MS. It sucks to think about. It just …. fucking sucks.

Tomorrow I hope I will think of it less.

And less the next day, and less after that…

I’ll be ok. 

But today …