Perhaps it hasn’t been obvious, perhaps it has, but I have been going through an introspective time in my life. Apparently it’s a common event at my age to have a mid-life crisis. But this is not a mid-life crisis, I’ve just been reflecting on my life a lot. So it’s more of a mid-life introspection. I realize, as morbid as it may sound, that I am closer to the end then I am to the beginning now. And this has made me come to the conclusion that I no longer have time to waste, to procrastinate.

It’s true that my health hasn’t been great, but regardless of that I am still affected by AGING. Just like petals on a flower, I will wilt. It just doesn’t seem fair. I’m not sure how long it will take, no one does, but it is inevitable. For a long time I thought I would be immune. Once I realized I wasn’t, I thought I would at least be graceful about it. Then gray hairs appeared, strays started popping up, and I started getting age spots. So I purchased fancy creams, got my hair dyed and plucked those grays and strays. F-U aging! I will not go peacefully into the night.

But aging is not purely physical, it’s also spiritual. And in that aspect I think I am killing it! I will die a spiritual guru! I hope. Like so many others in this “aging” situation, I assume we can’t help but look back and reflect on the moments and people that really affected, mattered, and defined us. And now, I want to focus on how I define myself going forward. The legacy I want to leave behind.

Don’t worry, I’m fine, like I said “it’s not a crisis”. It’s a deeply inspirational and spiritual time. And I will take full advantage of this spiritual inspiration to paint my heart and soul out, to write till the wee hours of the night, to appreciate the people in my life, to share what I’ve learnt, and to love (because I don’t have time to hate. Strong dislikes ok, but hate…meh).

Welcome to my introspection